My Word

Wow, 27 is weird.

Like, I’m in this weird space where in the same day I can make comments like, “Oh, I’m too old for that,” and, “Oh my gosh, I’m too young for that.” Can anyone else relate?

But as my time with 27 is getting shorter and shorter, I can feel myself molting out, rather, forced to grow into something more mature. For all my psychology folks out there, yes I know my prefrontal-cortex has closed and I’m a “real” adult now. it still doesn’t help the fact that I can feel myself letting go of trivial in/tangibles. Is this normal to be a little freaked out by this?

The things I was once concerned with have now taken a back seat and the things I never really gave a thought to have been brought to the forefront of my daily acknowledgments.

I sometimes find myself reaching out to entertain these useless thoughts; just to hold them one last time. Like as if I’m putting them in a memory drawer that I probably won’t open back up for another 10 years.

Even though this is happening in my life, I’m convinced that we all have this moment. The moment where we realize that we are moving on to better, more elevated things. And after much reflection, I’ve realized what my word is for this year:

Growth.

Year over year, we all grow in some capacity. Mine specifically is about growing mentally, taking on more challenging roles in my career, and not being afraid of the difficult conversations.

I’m coming into my own and I like who I am. It’s taken me a while to be able to say that, but I’m so glad I have been able to get there.

What's your word? What is life challenging you with? How are you rising to the occasion?

Hiking In Aspen

Putting Casper to Sleep (Just For A While)

A lot of people don’t know that I worked two jobs for about a year.

I currently work for a highly respected, wickedly talented, and humble plastic surgeons here in Denver. (Ask me about Gynecomastia procedures!) And I was formerly employed with Casper, the innovative mattress company, whilst employed with the surgeons. Yup, you read that right. I wasn’t a mattress sales person. I was just a gal sellin’ some dreams.

DID THAT GET TOO CORNY?

Yes.

Working two jobs was the hardest I had ever hustled. I put in (sometimes) 15+ hours of work only to get up and do it all over the next day. I thought I knew what discipline was prior to juggling two jobs. *laughs*

Walking away from this experience, I can confidently say that I’m more than disciplined. I’m unstoppable. 50 hour work weeks are child’s play and those who complain about it are WEAK.

I stand by what I said.

However, when I began noticing that my primary job with the surgeons started demanding more hours, I had to make the incredibly difficult decision to let something go. And that something was unfortunately my PT position with Casper.

This is my second week away from juggling two jobs and I’ve finally had a moment to myself to reflect on what an incredible year I had with Casper:

The Company

The biggest reason why I applied to Casper (more than once) was simply because their content marketing is so engaging. Prior to working with the company, I was ready to direct mail my debit card and have them buy me all the things. Their marketing was that good. Oh you have a different opinion? You’re allowed to think that but you’re wrong.
Casper pours so much care and love into everything they do— not just the marketing. Once hired on, I got an in-depth look into how corporate operates. I was stunned and impressed by the amount of detail they put into everything. All the way down to the Sales training manuals.

My team

If you’ve ever heard me speak of Jacob Ryan or Summer, these are the people that fostered and sharpened my work ethic and encouraged me to think about ideas in an abstract way. My brain was stretched to new dimensions and I’ll never go back to how I processed information in the past. Even though I was a part timer, they dedicated time to provide me a 6-month review. I was humbled and delighted to hear my team appreciates my reliableness. That was my big take-away and I have found rest in their feedback. It’s so important to hear the positive things about you as an employee. Jacob Ryan or Summer, if you’re reading this, thank you for recognizing that in me. I needed to hear it.

Me as a human

I proudly classify myself as an introvert with extroverted desires. I so badly want to start talking to others but desperately need a reason to strike up a conversation. I have so much to say and love engaging conversations that are fun and filled with laughter. Upon joining Casper, I never could see myself as a “sales” person just because of my blanketed consensus that Sales is for the extroverted.
But through persistent training and a friendly approach to a personality trait I never thought I had, I can confidently approach people in a fun, approachable manner.

I’m really going to miss Casper. I loved my journey with such a human-centric company and I can’t wait to see what they do next. I’m sad I won’t get to be part of the next steps, but I’m so proud that I get to cheer on from a distance. I hope one day I can work for Casper again.


But until then, keep on dreamin’ on.

CASPER




Roaming Around Red Rocks

I feel different.

Different in a good way.

Lighter, happier, more optimistic, everything under the sun that relates to joy. I’m basically that girl spinning around in a field of flowers in a feminine care commercial (note: that’s not real; more on that later, maybe). Prior to the new year beginning, I had guesses about how I’d live out my 2019… the moments I’d experience, the good times, the travel, the laughter… but I never would have guessed the way I feel inside.

How does one wake up happy on January 1?

I did some damage control before entering 2019. You know how those annoying Millennials ironically say, “leaving those bad vibes behind me,” or “I don’t need that kind of energy around me,” they were on to something because I actually did it and good came out of it.

For the first time in YEARS I chose me.

I had a serious conversation with myself about all my distractions, excuses, and worst of all, lack of inspiration. Why was I trying to find happiness in all the wrong places? And with that, I removed the negative energy from my phone, headspace, and life. In doing so, it was like seeing the world for the first time. I could breathe.

I missed the old me. The way I’d not give a flying f*ck about someone else’s opinions (within reason), march to the beat of my own drum, and go do life. I was unapologetically me. One who couldn’t be bothered with opinions of small minds because I was so focused on the next great adventure I was going to have. I lost sight of her for a while. Like being reunited with an old friend, I picked up right where we left off.

My mind has been bursting with positive energy, ideas, plans, actions, and movement. I just can’t wait to do it all.

I’m finally beginning to run towards the unknown with arms wide open. That’s how excited I am for what good there is to come. I know that life will present itself in the sweetest outcomes in due time; the only way to ensure that is to think positively and believe life is working in your favor.

Because of my newfound joy, I was inspired to get back out in nature. It had been a minute since I’d carried my camera along a trail, searching for the shot. Thanks to Red Rocks, I was able to lose myself in the moment.

Enjoy these photos of some red rocks and heavy Colorado blogger style edits.

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